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“All That and a Pair of Yoga Pants”

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I played hooky from school today. Never in my life have I asked off for a personal day that was free of an appointment or “reason”. The Lord planted this idea in my head to get a substitute for my class two days ago. I was perplexed because I NEVER ask off. It is like , God would have to give me a brain tumor to take time away from my classroom! I think it a “control issue” if you ask me.. Well, I was super giddy as I made MY plans to fill this day… I thought of the places I would go..the people I could meet –

As quick as I made MY plans the Lord erased them and He gave this sweet word to me -“ABIDE”- If you are like me… It is hard to sit still and abide…especially when there are things to do and places to go! Another word he gave me during the day was “ANTICIPATE”….as if to sit on the edge of my seat and await what the Lord is going to say or do next!
My day was filled with an overflowing of Himself. The sweet pleasures of the day included a leisurely cup of coffee and quiet time! It included making a hot breakfast for two high schoolers before they took off to school, clean sheets, a scrubbed out refrigerator , clean carpets, finished the last chapter of a book, crock pot full, swept off porch. This day also included the tossing of two dried out and crispy mums (yes…from autumn) and a changing of the Valentine flag out front! Hey, don’t judge! Life comes at us all fast…I was struck by the beauty of the Lord as he put a bow on the last few minutes of my alone time! I was reading from a book called “Wonderstruck” by Margret Feinberg when I came across this sentence.

“The abundant life begins here on earth as we choose to align our whole selves with God and continues as we ABIDE with God forever. The eternal abundant life we’re called to starts now and never ends.”

There was that word… ABIDE. It is a choice to align ourselves with His agenda.Personally, I loved this alignment today! So, from now on…when the Lord tells me to play hooky from school… I am all over it! Good thing only my dog witnessed the spontaneous , shadow shenanigans on the front porch! Abiding means listening …aligning and anticipating His work in our lives!
May your cup overflow in the goodness of the Lord!
All that and yoga pants,
Me

“Nothing Bundt Crumbs”

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This week , I found myself in a hurry to write the daily assignments on the board. My third graders were filing into the classroom and I had fallen behind in my preparation for the day as I had spent moments of frustration dealing with a technology glitch. (Can you relate?) I was in the middle of writing when I became aware of someone in my peripheral vision. I did not have time to turn and look…after all , I was busy. The figure didn’t move and patiently waited for me. As I turned around, I noticed a little package tied with a ribbon in one of my student’s hands. He had blessed me with a gift! It was not my birthday or anniversary or anything! It was a “just because” gift! He had a mini red velvet “Nothing Bundt Cake” that he handed to me with the kindest , sweetest smile on his face! His offering made my heart turn to mush! I gladly accepted his gift. Later that day , as I was pondering his kindness…it reminded me of a sweet truth. This is the same way Christ greets us in the morning. We all have crazy , busy days filled with glitches , frustrations and deadlines. Yet he patiently waits for our attention and seeks to bless us beyond measure! Psalm 103:5 says “He fills my life with good things. My youth is renewed like the eagle’s.” Lamentations 3:22 says “His unfailing love never ends! His mercies begin afresh each day!” My red velvet cake may be reduced to “Nothing Bundt Crumbs” now..but, just like the young man with a “just because gift”…Christ greets us each new day with the opportunity to accept His “Nothing Bundt LOVE” gift! He is endless, sweet, refreshing, energizing, encouraging and so much more!
Enjoy your day and be encouraged!

Take time to quiet yourself and turn from your “busy” to find His grace!

Is there someone in your life that you could bless with a “just because” gift?

Hope your day is “Nothing Bundt Sweet”!

Short & Tweet

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Birds begin to sing not long after the storm. It is so refreshing to listen to a little creature belt out notes of praise as the clouds part and the sun begins to shine again. I have had this blog for several years…it has sat dormit …for many different reasons and excuses. It is time to get back up on the tree branch and sing His “notes” of praise once again. So, if by chance you bend your ear this way or stumble upon this blog, may you be refreshed in His words. The posts won’t be long… It may just be “Short & Tweet”. Whatever you are doing today…this Good Friday, be encouraged! Jesus faced the storm of His life…He was betrayed, beaten and mocked! He was spat upon and hung on a wooden cross! The day was dark and His storm was intense! He did this ALL for YOU and for ME! Be encouraged!! Sunday is coming! Death is defeated! The “Son” is coming out and His “reign” is glorious! His very eye is on the sparrow and knows when it falls from the sky! How much MORE does He care for us!

Have a song filled day!
What a “tweet” it for me that you read this to the end! Stay tuned for more melodious ramblings.

“May He be pleased by all these thoughts about Him, for He is the source of all my JOY.” Psalm 104:34

Looking back at the brainbow~ HUE knew it would be so beautiful?

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I have not been able to blog much since returning to school in February for obvious reasons. Now, that it is summer , I look forward to getting on here more often…

As I walk away from the storm…( surgery-recovery) I have found such beauty!

It is like I am dancing under the arch of such spectacular brilliance all wrapped up God’s covenant promises.

The colors of the rainbow are :  red , orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet…. So , I will dance in these colors…

RED: Red reminds me of the color of  alert or alarm! It is like  the day I discovered the tumor….panic seized my heart and sent sirens whirling in my mind and heart…….It also reminds me of the blood of Jesus that allows us to walk thru anything covered in his protective blood.  Do you have Jesus? He promises to hear the cries and protect everyone who loves him. Psalm 145:17-20

ORANGE:  Orange reminds me of a question…. “Orange ya’ glad you had insurance and this surgery was  before Obama Care kicked in?” …Whatever that looks like…YES! or… Orange ya’ glad it is over? …. YES! Orange ya’ glad He promises to give a weary soul rest? YES! Matthew 11:28 …In fact He says …”Come to me and I will give you rest!”…. So many Orange ya’s … I could go on and on!

YELLOW: Yellow is my favorite! I love how BRIGHT my days were walking in the  daily newness of Scripture and encouragement from sweet friends! Never underestimate the “smilage” that someone can receive when you send them a heartfelt note! 🙂  Do you have anyone in your life that could use some more “smilage” today?  Colossians 2:2 ~ I want their heart to be encouraged and joined together in love, so they may have all the riches of assured understanding, and have the knowledge of  God’s mystery- Christ!

BLUE: One might think that blue would stand for the days I felt it… yes, there were days…and I still have those days… However… instead of an emotional blue…. I see the vast ocean blue! I see the vast ocean of  opportunities that I can take advantage of having gone through these depths. I do not want to waste any of it…. Everyone will have depths to walk through…we live in a fallen world. It is a world that  inhabits people that will run to every vice known to man to ease the pain.  It is all about “perspective”. Have you been through the blues? There is an ocean of people who are going through the same thing as you……reach out for help…or reach out TO  help…. The enemy wants us to feel isolated… ( I am thankful for the Facebook group : Acoustic Neuroma Tumor Survivors otherwise known as ANTS… (I loved knowing I was not alone in this specific area…it is not like many people have an AN!) 😉   Ephesians 3:20 ~ Now glory be to Go! By His mighty power at work within us, he is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope….now that is VAST!

INDIGO:  I am a Christian…. I love the Lord with all my heart….. To me, trials take on the form of an “invitation”…. It is an invitation from the Lord to DIG IN to His vast character and ALL that He is! It is where my weakness becomes His strength and I have the opportunity to live beyond myself as I daily DIG IN to Him….and rely on Him! I know this is a little backwards… but…IN DIG ~I GO …. I know this was a stretch…but, it tickles me PINK to play with these colors! There are just too many verses to quote for this color…. in fact, let us change the color! IN DIG U GO!  ha ha… I could not resist! Find our for yourself….

I look forward to this summer…as It stretches out before me! I am so happy to have be in the present ….and I am able to count all of my blessings and the way my Covenant God is sooo faithful! He promised to never leave me….He did not… He was there every step of the way walking me through HIMSELF!

Jeremiah 32:17  ~ He has made the heavens and the earth by His great power and outstretched arm….NOTHING is too difficult for Him!

 

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“Life is Always Changing…Navigating the New”

 

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    Life after “brain surgery” has allowed me to experience a new…NEW.  ~  My dad was here for a whole month and drove us everywhere! There was a point and time where I needed to get back into  the saddle …behind the wheel….and begin “life” again.  We took “baby steps”  with the whole driving thing and.. now I am even driving at night!  It is still not my favorite…but.. I can do it! I am  dealing with a “fuzzy head” …so  I went and purchased new wind shield wipers for those rainy days..my old wipers just needed to go…..I don’t need  any extra “blurr”…AND!!!

    Since old habits are hard to break….I bought a wheel cover… Let me explain! Before surgery…my car used to be my “phone booth”! ~Anyone relate???

 It was my habit to reach for my phone when I am driving. I CANNOT do that any more! I don’t do well…looking at anything other than the road…SO! I bought this comfy…squishy…wheel cover, with a lining of light pink, to keep both of my hands on!  It is a tactile reminder to use BOTH hands and to leave the phone tucked IN my purse. I will have my kids answer when it rings…. and they know NOT to give it to me. I talk now.. in parking lots…

SOMETIMES …. it takes proactive measures to change old habits! I feel confident and happy about my firm decision.  I hope it will carry over into the forming GOOD habit for  my children. (( Grant, my son,  and I drove around an empty church parking lot yesterday… he is 15 and just got his permit… GULP!…maybe the brain tumor came at just the right time to LIVE this habit out!))

There are other things I have had to adjust…  Handrails are my friend!! …. and  If we are ever  on the same bleachers…don’t be surprised if I use your shoulder…unannounced! … So, to the people I have scared…. I am so sorry!!  😉  Balance is a challenge …

I find this kinda funny… One  Sunday morning, I dressed in dress pants for church….. you know the kind that is extra long and requires special heeled shoes….. ..and I absent mindedly  put on the boots I ALWAYS wear with those pants… the boots have ~heels… Dumb choice! What was I thinking?  Well…that has not happened again! did I tell you I was balance challenged??

Once a change has been revealed … we must adjust!~ Otherwise we are walking  “wonky”….Handrails required!

This makes me think of a Scripture… James 1:23-25

Anyone who listens to the Word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror and , after looking at himself , goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But whoever  looks intently into the perfect law that gives FREEDOM , and continues in it- not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it-they will be blessed in what they do.

Whenever I share… this verse , I love to put pudding on my face….and look into a mirror…!  People love it…especially kids… and I say, “OH, Lookie, there! I have pudding on my face!!!” I put the mirror  down and continue with my talk…. until the obvious! I have to do something about the mess on my face! When Scripture reveals it…. DO something about it! ~ sometimes…..sometimes….. it may take a “REAL” friend to lovingly tell  another friend… that that they have pudding on their face….~

~ People may respond gratefully…. “a real friend will let a friend  knew if there is a big chive  in their  teeth or pudding on their  face.. ~ “OH…thank you so much!~ OR… They may respond indignantly…

However… if it is done in love and in the Spirit… then it is not up to you HOW that person responds. We are called, as Christians, as Parents….and I am talking to myself… to spur each other on to LOVE and good deeds. It is MORE than just that…Iron sharpens iron!  We  are living in a day and age where compromise sets the standard….

~ But whoever LOOKS intently into the perfect WORD/law that gives FREEDOM , and continues in it…not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it…they will be blessed in what they do.

Life is Always Changing….our culture is always molting…new trials are always on the horizon……Scripture stays the same!

My prayer is that we navigate wisely…. finding true freedom… it may  require that  we proactively change old habits!

Here’s to FREEDOM and “safe travels”!

((hugs))

:)…..”SMILE-age”….it goes a LONG way!~

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One of the first things I did upon waking up was …. check the status of my smile! YES…! It was symmetrical!… I could do it with ease!!

~ and  ALL was well with the world! I have not stop smiling since!

Well…. there is nothing that inspires a smile more than knowing someone cares and is thinking about you…

Yesterday… I received a call from a sweet co-worker …she wanted to tell me she was going to give a “little something” to my daughter to bring home to me.  I was so blessed by her….number one…. to take the time to call (we got to engage in a sweet conversation) …and number two… I was so blessed… as you can see in the picture…. to open  this  “little something”. I am telling you….. needed sunglasses as I opened this “thoughtfilled” package.

This inspires me!…. SO, I had to use the outlet of this blog to maybe inspire you!~

SUNSHINE inspires SUNSHINE!!

I know the heart and motivation of this sweet teacher and it is as pure gold! She teaches at both campuses and she just radiates the love of Christ.

So may I say…. SONshine inspires SONshine!~

WHATEVER the “GIFT” is that one chooses to  give….is up to the giver…It does not have to cost money…..It could be in a “text”…a note…a pat on the back….a word of encouragement….a candy bar….a little package….

The gift …proclaims….”I care about you.”

Here are some ideas:

I am just passing these on because they were given to me……

1. One of my sweet co-workers had all the teachers write 40 cards of get well….she put them all in a beautiful box with a journal! I LOVE to open them and see the handwritten words that add LIFE…and healing into my days! She even set it up to have teachers get reminders through the computer  to pray for me during my time off!

2. A sweet student and mom wrapped a bin of sweet little “Happy-ies” …. for me to open as I made my way through the days of recovery! It was complete with a pink glow – in the dark princess wand! You know I loved that!

3. I have cherished the gift of “TIME”….and time is precious.  Whether it takes the form of a phone call or a visit…. I have cherished it! We live “out” away from anything really close….there is something so special about “couch” time with friends!

4. I have not heard of “Take Them a Meal” web site until it was used for us. My family has been SO blessed through this ministry. My dad has been here since Dec. 13th and it has been such a blessing to not have to worry about the family and meals!

When one  family~ from school~ was about to walk out the door.. after delivering their sweet gift of “yummy love”… the mom suggested we hold hands and pray!  Oh…the celebration! ~What a testimony to her young son!…THAT was a gift in a gift!

5. I have received sweet “get well” cards in my mailbox…. and I especially love the handmade cards from students… 😉 YES! There is a TON of smilage in GLITTER!  I could bathe in it!…

6. If the Lord lays something on your heart for someone…go with it! ~ I will never forget the day in the hospital that I spilled Ginger Ale all over the comfy blanket that I brought. I was bummed…. It was only seconds later that a sweet couple came to visit  and had a “gift” in their hand. Would you believe it was a plush …soft …beautiful blanket? OH… the JOY! ~ they, too gave the gift of time ! I was so happy to go for a walk  down the hall with my sweet friend…arm in arm…. and to my sweet surprise…they brought their children…(5th and 9th grade) It meant so much! ~ I was hooked up to wires..my head in a big wrap….I did not care…. I celebrated LIFE!

7. I also received…. VERSES on index cards! Students from 3 -5 th grade wrote various verses on index cards and put them all on a ring. I LOVED looking over them and being ministered to by the verses that they picked!

 

I am sure there have been other ways … I will probably edit this a number of times…but, I hope this encourages someone to “reach” out and add some “SMILE-AGE” to someone’s day.  I am so grateful and FULL of  thanksgiving to the people who have reached out and made this journey for me easier…just KNOWING YOU CARE! Thank you!

LOVE+CARE=LIFE          LIFE= GROWTH        GROWTH= HEALTH   ~ Do you see the word “heal” in health?

It is amazing how this works…If I EVER feel like I am headed into “funky-town”… all I need to do …is  remember all  the SON-SHINE and LOOK for others to spread it to! ~ Remember…the heart of the GIFT is knowing someone truly cares!

Happy Travels!

 

 

 

 

From “NUMB” to ….”WHOOO HOOO!~”

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One of the first signs that I knew something was ominously wrong…was the fact that my tongue started going numb. It started on the right side of the tongue and then invaded the right side of my mouth. This was passed  the time I checked for “ear wax”…and about the time I was trying a new medicine for allergies…

( BTW…..it is ALWAYS a good idea to “listen” to your body and it will tell you if something is not right…yes…your body will tell you!.)

When I went to the ENT doctor … the thing that concerned him was …the numbing of my tongue. Let me tell you….by the time I had surgery,  not only was my tongue numb…it started looking funny and changing….It was as though my taste buds had totally gone on strike and told the right side of my face to follow. ~ for it… too… began to feel cool.

OK… SO! I say all of that to SAY!!!!

The DAY AFTER SURGERY….. The DAY after I get this “plum” sized bag of blob off of my nerves….the blood was allowed to flow back freely…revitalizing everything in it’s path! Yes…my taste buddies came back with a vengeance! The ~ creepy color of my tongue turned back to precious pink…and the old rubbed off and was replaced by NEW! ~ Imagine…IMMEDIATELY…… AFTER  GETTING  THE BLOB … OUT!  WHAT  a DIFFERENCE! My taste buds became so hyper…. all I could really eat for a few days was apple sauce ,pudding,…and my favorite, Rice Krispies!

This so made me ponder…I have worked with teenagers…. spend endless hours in conversations with them at various events including …”Shleep Ovas” ~(….that is a key  time to listen… they really open up in the middle of the night)….Not sure why they are called “Sleep Overs” …NO one hardly sleeps until it is time to go…or  has all been cleaned up! 😉 I love it though!

OBSERVATION:

I see so many young people….students….may I dare say even adults….walking around NUMB.

Numb to WHO they are…and WHO they are CREATED to be!

Numb to GOALS….Numb to LIFE….NUMB….to hurt….Numb to LOVE… Numb….just plain NUMB.

The TRAGEDY….People have taken this so far as to look for numbing agents to “help” with it all ~ to push them farther into numbness…whether it be…alcohol, shopping, eating, drugs, U name it….One thing that has hit me that not many people talk about is “Cutting”….some  are so desperate to FEEL something/anything….that the only way to” feel” is to take a knife and CUT…. deep into their precious skin. ~ allowing the blood to flow …It doesn’t make any sense …but it really is a problem.

If only they knew that the nails…that CUT into the hands and feet of  JESUS have  extracted  the “BIG BAG OF BLOB” called sin  that rests on the very nerves of all mankind. He has REMOVED the parasite …the tumor of SIN. He DIED so we could feel and experience TRUE LIFE! All of us are looking and want to experience LIFE. Why do we keep looking away from the CROSS?

I will close….in this….

Please let the reality of the CROSS ….be before you today. He came as the Great Physician to remove the tumor of sin….. it is GONE! Allow the precious blood to flow and restore any dead areas of your life.  He is only a prayer away…and His Word is available as your phone is near you…. Look up John 10:10 ~ The thief…coward….twerp…big bag of BLOB …comes to steal and kill and destroy. I….. (meaning Jesus) have come that they may have life and have it to the FULL!!!!!!  Jesus brings LIFE!….

……. so does the potential of YOUR tongue and my tongue…. Just as I have been jumping up and down at the reality of tasting yummy things again… I have been on the look out for ways to encourage and use my tongue to BREATH life into those around me.  Just a small heart felt word of encouragement might just be the very thing that sets a numbing heart …into …..”whoo hooo”~ WOW….. Someone does cares about me!”

Have a precious day….

 

 

“Snap , Crackle, Pop!”

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Going into the surgery… I knew I would come out deaf in my right ear.  Everyone loves to “test” their new boundaries… so that is what I did with my morning cereal at the hospital. I poured my milk…and waited for the familiar sound to erupt from my cereal bowl. Augh…. “Snap! Crackle and POP!” I heard it in my left ear… and then…. moment of truth…… slight tilt of the head….~ “SILENT”….

Ok…I  knew this was going to happen… It is now a “moment” of discovery in my new reality. If I am going to have a moment like that…I guess it is best to have 3 fun little friends with cool hats … named Snap , Crackle and Pop help with the life changing  news.

I am several weeks post op…and I will tell you it is quite an adjustment. That is all I am going to say about that….

I can look at this in one of two ways… half empty or half full!~ after all……I am hearing half and half!  !

So if you call my name…there is half a chance I will hear you… please don’t be offended.

In Philippians 4:19 it says

“And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.”

He has unlimited recourses! He is not a HALF way GOD! He will supply ALL of your needs…all of my needs.

All WE have to do is look around us…and know how incredibly blessed  WE are! It is our choice to look at life with a positive perspective. No one is going to force a positive perspective on us. It  really takes being “intentional” about it to have it. The devil wants more than anything to rob….steal and butcher any joy …contentment…or peace that we  have. It is up to YOU and ME to guard it!~ NO ONE CAN TAKE IT WITHOUT  OUR CONSENT!~

New perspective…in finding balance with a deaf ear:

1. I can still taste Rice Krispies…. I don’t have to hear them!

2. Even if I can’t hear…so well… I love how…. the word EAR is in the middle of the word ~ H  ear  T~ I still have all of my heart  .. and it  hears  a lot of things that are not audible.

3. When I go back to teaching… there maybe a little guy or gal  that can relate to me…and I to them.

4. I do have an incessant tinnitus ….a roar…going on in my brain…. Yes… it gets annoying! However… if it shall be a thorn… it shall be a constant reminder of my depenDANCE on the one who will help me hear the music played before me everyday….HIS song of worship played out in my life .One of the GREATEST  JOYS I have found in all of this…. is…. knowing the Lord walks beside me. He has held my hand since the night before school started ….when my tumor was revealed. He has held me up. I know I will need Him more in the days ahead…What comfort to know He still sings over me.

5. I LOVE how the whole thing has brought me to a point of… realizing….THIS IS NOT MY HOME!  One day , I will have a new body…and to think that the next time I hear in my right ear… It will be of angels singing!~ It pushes me forward to think that I can be a message of HOPE to a lost world needing so desperately to find the HOPE we have in Christ. Living HOPE!

6. It has me ultra aware of others….and the possible ….silent….struggles they my be facing…

7.  and besides…..Belly aching just doesn’t do ANY good…anywhere ….anytime…. it just brings everybody down…who needs that?

My dad just walked in from taking the kids to school…. I am truly grateful! Thanks DAD!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I have started a “Blessings Journal”… and the list grows longer on a daily basis only because it is my choice on what I dwell on.

Christmas Reflections taken from the WORD “STABLE”…What a COMFORT!

AS I woke up from the fog of surgery…. I heard snippets of my surgeon’s voice…telling my husband how things went. He said ONE word that triumphed all other words….”STABLE”. She was stable through the whole process… Fears vanished into air and  I knew that I could go on into my medicated state… at rest with the world.

Chuck told me he was able to get updates through the surgery by phone from the nurse….Lauren…She told him 3 hours into the process that everything was “stable”…  So…stable… was not NEW news to him. He knew how things were all along until he hit about 3:30 and there was not any more news until late that evening. That must have been hard!

I am happy to be  on the other side of surgery and now with  Christmas just behind us, too….I can  sit and contemplate a few things… with the computer on my lap, fire in the fire-place and  my favorite blanket on my lap..((.Thanks, KIM! 😉  Plus coffee courtesy of my DAD!))

So, back to the word  STABLE.

Being a teacher… I love WORDS~ I love the use of words…I love puns on words I just can’t help it.

The word STABLE has hit me. ~ STA-BLE

Stable can be 3 parts of speech..it is a noun, a verb and an adjective.

Sta-ble

1. Noun: a building by which domestic animals are sheltered and fed.

2. verb : to put or keep in a stable, to dwell in …hmmmm…

3. adjective: firmly established, not changing or fluctuating, steady in purpose, firm resolution not subject to insecurity or emotional illness

I remember all of the stories and “possibilities” that swamped my thoughts the months before surgery. I was reminded of them again the hour before they started began to cut me open….as the parades of professionals  came to speak to Chuck and I… it was really un-nerving. But, they have to give the info. They were so professional and great!

I had a couple of  options… I could panic and run … or, I could trust the physicians that are knowledgeable in their field and REST…knowing that they know what they are doing. I chose the latter. 😉 I hardly got out the door and I was out like a light.

Now, being on the other side of surgery… and on the other side of the calm, beautiful day of Christmas… I still have “STABLE” on my brain.

Every time I get up …. I have that word wobbling around somewhere….”all right…..Stable….Stable…you can do this…stable ..on foot in front of the other…..”

When they took the tumor…they took the balance mechanism in the right side of the brain so I have to be able to compensate as time goes by. I will never forget …the first time I got to get up. It was a grand trip to the bathroom. yes, a MAJOR success! Everything seemed unsteady…insecure…and fearful.  Every time I got a “new” nurse… I had to explain to her that it was OK for her to STAY IN the bathroom with me. Just the comfort of her VOICE, her  touch ….her presence help really helped!!

It ” moved” me along… ha ha…couldn’t resist!~ I could have been very prideful… and pushed her out…but the comfort of knowing she was there was priceless….

THAT’S IT!!!! That…. is like the STABLE!

My nurse… PHYSICALLY with me.

OUR GOD…. PHYSICALLY  with me and US! His voice…. “Do not be afraid…I am here…I love you… You are going to be alright!”

He is GOD Emmanuel… God WITH US! I want so much for God to stay IN my WORLD WITH me.  Don’t you?

The “stable” of life  can be a very prideful place… we want to DO IT all on our own…We don’t need anyone or anything…As I reflect,  I can just sit and close my eyes in beauty because I did not resist her help or her loving care. She did not FORCE ME to receive it…. It just beautifully came. …and I received.

I know I could turn on the TV at any moment and get back to the chaos of the world…it will not stop. Satan knows he is on a timeline and he knows it is getting shorter . He wants to STEAL your STABLE…He wants to put you in a place of PRIDE so you are so unable to receive what is offered in the STABLE. I can’t think of a better way for a TRUE King to Come into the World …than through a low…humble stable. He is HIGH and LIFTED UP!

He has come to breath the beauty of life into the stench of DEATH…conquering it ….FOREVER!

Thanks for letting me contemplate my new word….How I loved hearing the word…”Stable” just coming out of surgery from the lips of my surgeon!

How I love peering into the “STABLE” living in a world that is nothing but…and finding my GOD

right HERE with me…through the POWer of the resurrection …and the Holy Spirit.

“Take Heart… For I Have overcome the WORLD!~ John 16:33 … That is straight from the Healer’s LIPS… the Greatest Physician of ALL~

NOW… that is STABLE!

 

 

 

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Today….7 , well actually 6…. days POST OP!

Greetings Once Again!~  I vividly remember my last entry on Monday night in the hotel room..

… a final farewell to Mr. Tomb-er and a fun poem…”Twas the Night Before Brain Surgery”…..(THAT was Chuck’s idea I have to say!)

There is so much to say… I will try to be selective.

 

As I laid my head on the pillow that night…I was SO ready…! I think I woke up every hour looking at the clock~ At one of the hours.. Something in my spirit compelled my to say….”Open the eyes to my heart , Lord!” I want to see you!”~  I was a little baffled and wondered ….. was that  all? Was that all Lord that you wanted to whisper to me??… He let me go sweetly back to sleep until 4 something. Chuck and I prayed as we went out of the door…and left for Vanderbilt.

I was soon in the pre-op room…. I was given a beautiful XL purple gown to wear….! It hooked up to a hose that made me  blow it up like a grape! I was “grapeful!” I am always cold… The door kept opening with a new face that tried to remember,,,, They were my critical team … and they were very precise… direct and to the point with their information. They asked a lot of questions….. after poking …examining and marking me… I was ready for the “see you later juice”…. I barely remember getting rolled out of the door…..

17 hours later….it was over. At 1 in the morning, I was rolled into my NICU 6644 room. To be honest….I just remember this “orange” blur.. passing across my face…and Chuck’s voice…. I do not remember what he said….

From there….a lot is a blur…but I do remember some significant things…!

I remember the constant care of Chuck…his presence…I knew his smile was in the room…

I remember the beauty of my nurse… her voice and touch. I was so nauseated coming out of surgery…I could not keep the IV down…or anything that I tried to drink….She was an angel to me…. She crunched up the medicines in apple sauce… all night long…..she came in and I did not even mind she kept waking me up…shining lights in my eyes and asking me my name…and where I was…

I remember this very TIGHT bandage on my head…It made me feel secure!~  At one point… I think it was 4:40 or so…. I had my first personal revelation that I had made it thru… I felt my neck…..”I am alive!”…. I looked at the clock…. “ok”…moment of truth….”SMILE , WANDA! smile!…. I GRINNED the biggest grin up to the clock…and all functions WORKED!” I was astounded…happy…. grateful…. amazed… 17 hour surgery…a tumor the size of a plum…and I had my face! ~ I was braced for a whole bunch of complications for up to a year!~ All melted away…all fell into praise!

Let me just say… and I will close…As the surgeon sat on my bed and gave the beautiful report…I had point out  to him specifically … ALL the prayers that were said on this/ his  behalf…. he said he could FEEL the prayers in the OR. He said it was a “dream surgery and all was “stable”…. ~ There is still so much to say… maybe I can bore you with the details later…. He had a glowing report of such surgery success….

I remember telling many people that this “tumor” has become a “gift” for me on so many different levels…~ a gift to share the love of Christ…a gift to share” HIS STABLE”….but, I never DREAMED it could ever become a mountain top experience of walking through the valley… and seeing the Lord HIGH and LIFTED UP! I am still baffled by that…ONLY a LIVING God…a loving God can do such miracles…even in the face of adversity!

My Morning whisper from the hotel… came true…. “I  got/get to see the Lord… High and Lifted UP (( and those around me , too!) …. My heart can hardly contain all of its abundance .. and wonder…..! I have a ways to go…. from what I hear it will take patience and time.

My wonderful neighbor came and brought a spread of breakfast!~ I feel so loved on and blessed!

Until next time…