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Last year…a CAR! …this year a SCAR!~

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Ok… so last year… (We were ready to get rid of our trusty van!~ You know the wonderful family car that the “kids” grew up with! The one with the tattered seats…stains on the carpet and mile of memories! I think my van was the only one in town with a “Water Buffalo ding in the side!~ Yes, we will call it youth ministry at the drive thru safari park! I will never forget that day!  I think there may have been corn kernels still lurking somewhere in the corners! When we bought the new car…. I had to have a moment alone in it  just to reminisce  the  sMILES our trusty van gave to us…

POOF!~ now ,to the story! So, last year…Christmas morning….We fabricated the scene from  one of the Christmas commercials! You know the one that has this car in the driveway…as the mom…(hair done , make up …and a cup of steaming coffee in hand) ….goes out and finds this beautiful  machine in the driveway  with a BIG red bow attached to the top!! Well… that was me… minus the hair done and make up!~ Chuck actually  went out  to Michael’s and got a HUGE RED BOW and put it on the top!  (sweet!)

We got a Nissan Murano and I have never looked back to the van…. except this summer when I wanted to haul extra kids …. ;( needless to say…. we lived!

Any way…

This year is a different story!~ I already know my gift… It will come in the form of an extraction of a” blob in the brain!”  …and a train track scar up the side of my skull.  ~ Who came up with the idea of stapling the skin?? Who had the nerve to try it for the very first time….(ha ha , that was funny) so, I am venturing to say that with  year’s gift … I am able to already begin the process of opening all of its wonders!  I don’t even have the scar yet….

It is actually going to be the topic of a devotion I will give at the middle school/high school campus  at Westminster in early Dec. I am so excited to have been asked to share!~ I think we will have some fun with it…(Pray for me as I need direct words and clarity in the short amount of time that I will have to speak truth into the lives of young people…)

I am also going to venture to say… that… with last year’s gift… the Murano…..I have gotten a lot of mileage out of it.  🙂 I love to drive it!

With this year’s gift….the “Blob”…. I have already gotten a lot of “smilage” out of God’s blessings and love from others. I love to discover thru it!

I have found that …. as I stare into the manger….into the revelation of  God’s perfect  gift…. I am overwhelmed. I am overwhelmed that  heaven would come  to an ugly ..sin filled earth to rescue it . I find that as I travel on this road mapped out for me……. I have all that I will EVER need in life and death. This week’s memory work  for school…was to break down the Lord’s Prayer… and we did..

.”Give us this day our daily bread”

…He promises to provide us with all that we REALLY need in our spiritual life and physical life!”

He is the BREAD~ DAILY~ With every sunrise comes the dawning of His unlimited resources!~

As I seek HIM… I find Him!~You say… how can an impending  scar be a gift?  That is how!

We live in a world where gravity is inevitable… we are going to have scars! ~ We also live in a world where  the life’s burdens are unbearable at times… we are going to go off route and suffer from schemes not meant for us ….. but BEHOLD!~ those  shameful scars can still be turned into gifts and plunder  to be used  against the enemy.

I look forward to the season approaching us… first of THANKSGIVING and then of  being able to stare  into the wonder of Jesus….

He is an expert in the area of scars!~ He has them to prove his undeniable  LOVE for us!

We are his prized possession!~

So much …that He is waiting for us at our final destination~

OH , the difference an “S” makes! …… from   CAR to  S ~CAR         …. I would like to claim the “S”  to represent my SWEET  SAVIOR!~

 

“Departing News”

So, today….  I decided to part my hair on the “other side”.  I wanted to “try” a new thing while I still feel like doing my hair. My hair “parts” on the right side and swoops over to the left…. today….not sure why…but, today…. I decided to part it on the left. I guess with the leaves changing colors and Christmas commercials on the television…  my subconscious is telling me my surgery is not too far away… they will shave the right side right behind my ear…so…I wanted to train my hair to fall to that side to fill in the empty spaces…. Let’s just get the awkwardness over with so I can focus on other stuff later…

Yes…. I parted my hair on the opposite side…. I felt “opposite…lopsidedly….silly” all day. I am going to have to get used  to it…  and GUESS WHAT???!!  no one EVEN noticed…it was hard for people to pick it out, even if I asked them. I did ask  my students and they even  had a hard time figuring out what was “different”!…and they have to look at me everyday!

They did tell me I looked “younger”!!…. and hey, I will that!! 🙂

It got me thinking! ….

( I may know what you are thinking….”ummm, WHO CARES if you parted your hair on the opposite side?”

How many times to we go about our day….worried about how we look… or feel…. or worried someone will notice something we are self conscientious about. We spend a lot of time and energy focused on ourselves. We are worried about what 99% of the people will not even notice…and if truth were told…those 99% are too busy worrying about themselves they don’t have time to notice what anyone else has going on.

So…here is some encouragement …… The time you go somewhere with two different socks on…or something doesn’t match….or all of your energy is spent explaining why you don’t have make-up on…or ~fill in the blank…..there is a good chance people do not even notice or mind.  When I was a little girl, I always thought my hands were too big. I would sit on them and hide them…. same with my elbows…!! I thought they were awkward. COME ON! I wish I could have told myself….”Who cares? …… I also tried to pick my freckles off…to no avail… I still have them.

Sometimes , I wonder why we all can’t relax into our  own skin and be good with who we are. It frees us up to love life a little more and be loved for who we are.  It allows us to break down the walls of expectation of ourselves…. and frees us up to..  just to do “our best “~ whatever that is.

So….”departing news”…. today… I felt “lopsidedly.. silly” as I sported my new “do”.  I am happy to announce I lived through my first day of inverted bangs….

and  I will live through the period of  time when my shaved hair will grow back…. and my scar is exposed.

I will live through awkward moments of non- balance…

I will live in freedom….not chained to the idea that everything has to be perfect ….

and maybe it will be infectious to allow those around me to feel the freedom, too!