So, let me tell you what is on my brain!!
ok…so at the end of May…… I noticed my ear feeling “full”….So , I asked my husband to look in my ear and tell me how to get the earwax out. I went to his office and to my dismay … he said my ear was really clean! I was rather perplexed…. I had been spending a lot of time with either a Q Tip or my finger in my ear… awkward.
In June… my tongue began to feel funny… like it was tingling. I mentioned it to my husband …again… and he just said it might be allergies! GREAT!!! ok! That must be it! YES! All the pressure from the allergies must be making my tongue numb! So, I got some allergy medicine and began to take it. To no avail! I tried another kind of allergy medicine! It did not do anything….again… hum???
Soon.. it was July…..we headed to Florida for a trip to the beach… and I really thought it was “better”… Yes …! It must have been those Alabama allergies! It seemed to be better at the beach…(Well, doesn’t everything seem to be better at the beach?) Anyway, I was SURE that it was . Now that I think back… of course it felt better , I was away from noise and my ear was out in the open…HOWEVER…my mouth was STILL numb…now…my lips and the inside of my mouth…. hum???
August rolled around and it was time for school to start up again. We had a day of in-service meetings, as all schools do …and… I thought I was going to burst out in tears…. well, actually I did. In our smaller/elementary group we mentioned some “prayer requests” and I could not help myself. It came out of nowhere. It really surprised me that I was so on the edge of myself. It was really bothering me more than I had let on!. I had an appointment on the 6th and I was so grateful! Finally, I could get on some steroids…I thought ..”Yes! … IT MUST be a virus!!”
Grateful for my appointment…I head to the ENT . I take a hearing test… answer all the questions the sweet doctor asked me… he told me what he thought it could be… he told me what he” did not” think it would be based on the results of the hearing test and my symptoms..
But…because my tongue was numb….he sent me for an MRI.
Well…(that’s a deep subject)
I find out that night … the night before school started , that I have this benign brain tumor in my head! The totality of reality did not hit me till later. I was happy my dad was visiting and he could hear it in person …rather that over the phone. He lives in Iowa~! (Hi, Dad! I love you!) Anyway… that is how I found out about this mass on my brain. I can’t wait to tell you more! I can’t wait to tell you how my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ ministered to me as my brain wrapped around this thing.
He has whispered many things dear to my heart and encouraged the socks right off of me. I find it scandalous that I can be truly filled with so much JOY… and peace during all of this. (umm, have I cried? YEAH… like a baby…on my dog’s shoulder…into my pillow ) So, HEAR , I sit…knowing the Lord is calling me to a sweet place with Him. I am praying that I won’t have ”spiritual earwax”… I want to be still enough…shhhhh….quiet enough….ready enough… to hear those sweet gentle nudges from the Lord.
May you know that where ever you are…He is doing the same for you! Thanks for sitting a spell … It is Friday night… all of us are home from the football game! I am ready for some zzZZZZzzzzzs! I just had to tell you how all of this was revealed.
Like really…. how do you go from thinking you have a massive case of earwax to a brain tumor in just two months???